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저는 한국인입니다
동시에 흙수저.. 가장 가난한 집안에 태어났고 콩가루 집안입니다
부모님의 사랑은 기대할 수 없었고 저는 애정결핍증을 가지고 온갖 트라우마를 겪었습니다
태어났을 때 부터 몸이 허약한 열등한 DNA 를 가지고 있었고 희귀병인 과잉기억증후군도 갖고 있습니다 어쨌거나 저는 그 누구도 믿을 수 없었고 오로지 혼자 독학하여 어떻게든 살아왔습니다 저는 운이 없어도 너무 없었고 저주받은 듯 주변 사람마저 불행하게 하는 것 같아 틀어 박히게 되었고 어떻게든 생각을 버리고자 취업에 전념했지만 한국에서는 부모를 잘 만나는 것이 아닌 이상 스펙도 못쌓고 일자리를 구하는 건 불가능한 일이였습니다 어떻게 혼자 정신과를 다니면서 극복하려고 했지만 이제 그것 마저도 게임으로 어떻게든 현실도피를 해왔지만 더 이상 버틸 수 없어 누군가를 해치기 전에 정신 병원에 입원하게 될 것 같습니다 모든 것을 정리하던 중 github 에 문제 요청이 왔던걸 이제야 봤습니다 저는 이 업데이트 이후 아마 입원하게 될 것이며 그 뒤로 살아있을진 잘 모르겠습니다 말이 길었네요 읽어주셔서 감사합니다 그냥 하소연이였습니다 어처피 10~20년 뒤면 사라질 나라일텐데 같이 사라지는 것도 나쁘진 않을 것 같네요

Hi, it's been a while

This is TMI, so it doesn't matter if you watch it or not, so if you don't like it, you don't have to watch it

I'm Korean
At the same time, I was born into the poorest family and a family of trash.
I couldn't expect love from my parents, and I suffered from affection deficiency and all kinds of trauma
I've had inferior DNA that made my body weak since I was born, and I also have a rare disease called hyperthymesia. Anyway, I couldn't trust anyone, and I just lived by teaching myself. I had no luck, and I felt like I was cursed and made people around me unhappy, so I became a shut-in, and I tried to get rid of my thoughts somehow, but in Korea, unless you have good parents, you can't build up your qualifications and it's impossible to get a job. I tried to overcome it by going to a psychiatrist on my own, but now I've been escaping reality by playing games, but I can't stand it anymore, so I think I'll be admitted to a mental hospital before I hurt someone. I just saw that there was a problem request on github while I was organizing everything. I'll probably be admitted to the hospital after this update, and after that I'm not sure if I'll be alive. It was a long story. Thank you for reading. It was just a complaint. Anyway, it's a country that will disappear in 10 to 20 years. I don't think it would be a bad idea for it to disappear together.